The blueprint for my future life is so ambitious;I even plan to go abroad to study medicine or other biological-science-related stuffs. However, the reality is a kind of misery.... OMG.

For one thing, I feel uncomfortable expressing my thoughts to foreign students and colleagues in my institute because my fluency is lacking. For another, I cannot make many complex sentences or paragraphs without the help of English dictionaries. Those are the reasons why I always realize that my English efficiency is still pretty STUPID.

I just hope, as I mentioned in the title of this journal, to be INDEPENDENT FROM DICTIONARIES and, to speak, read and write English like American-borns!!

(Crying up)